So where did we leave off? Oh that’s right sharing my secret with the world. =0 How do you tell all these people who have known you for all these years that oh btw dead people talk to me…now! WHAAAT?! Yeah that was gonna take a while. So I decide, ya know what, if God gave me this gift, it must be for a reason, so let’s roll with it. I book a couple of readings as Pat suggested. Practice makes perfect ya know!! I start small with friends of family members that I had never met and knew nothing about. So I’m not gonna lie to you the first couple of readings I completely bombed!! Have any of you seen that Theresa Caputo SNL skit, “so who choked on the meatball parm?” Yeah it went something like that! All the while thinking to myself, I thought I had a gift, what is going on??? Well ladies and gents, what was going on was an introduction to my EGO. That’s right its in capital letters because it is a very prominent and challenging part of each and every one of us. I revisit the basics of what Pat had originally taught me. There is no faith in fear. I will say it again, there is no faith in fear. Those 2 words really don’t even belong in the same sentence! So essentially I was so afraid of being wrong, I was preventing myself from being right. So concerned about what the person in front of me would be thinking if perhaps they said “no” to something I said. They will think I’m lying, I don’t have a gift, and I have no business saying I do right! WRONG! These were all self-serving egotistical thoughts, totally opposite of everything spirit ever made me feel. Ya see spirit makes you feel like someone is wrapping a warm blanket around you in the middle of a snowstorm. It comes from a love so deep we tend to overlook it everyday. Yup…that’s where I needed to get back to! And I did. Everytime I did a reading I would meditate and ask my spirit guides to bring me to that place. I had total faith that spirit would be there and would trust that I could relay there messages with the utmost clarity. I brought myself back to why I was pursuing this in the first place. Because I wanted to share that amazing warm blanket with every person that sat in front of me! I started booking clients every Friday night, and sometimes Saturdays too. The more I did the more clear I got. Communicating with spirit is much like learning a different language. So in order for me to learn my signs and symbols it was like trial and error. I would sit with my clients and go over the reading after the fact to sort out the details and have them fill in the blanks so that I could learn. For instance, if I see an American flag, I now know that spirit is telling me they were in the military. If I see balloons, I know they want to acknowledge an anniversary or a birthday and so on and so forth.
So my guess is, ya wanna hear some spirit stories right?!! So I would tell my clients to tell me nothing about them, that way anything I would see, hear, or feel, I would trust was of purity, and not something I could’ve ever known! Trust me it’s a lot more challenging to read someone that ya know. Let’s just say spirit needs to get creative! I remember doing a reading for a young girl who had lost a family friend at a very young age. She showed herself to me the age she would’ve been had she still been alive. She talked about her mom, her dad, described her room, her interests, and gave all these wonderful details to validate who she was. Then the message…that she was happy, she was ok, and she was still with all of them! So what you need to understand is while the message is the warm blanket, the validation is what makes us believe in the message. It’s like meat and potatoes to us irish folk. You just can’t have one without the other, its just not the same. Are ya feeling me yet?
So a little over a year ago I slowly began to share my secret with more people. The more I felt comfortable with my gift, the less I cared that others might judge me. After all we have all experienced spirit at some time in our lives to some degree, there is no denying! Every reading I did my clients were filled with questions and curiosity. So I will share with you exactly what I told them. I am not special!! Every person has the ability to connect with spirit! Huh? That’s right, every person can connect with spirit. It’s like learning how to play an instrument. Anyone can take piano lessons and learn to play right? Some will be better than others, why? Maybe the time they put into it, maybe a natural talent they were born to do, who knows! Connecting with spirit is the same. We can all do it, just to varying degrees and abilities. The necessary tools…an open mind, an open heart, and open eyes.
Sounds wonderful, glorious, perfect right, that’s what I was thinking too! Until one night I see an image of a girl. An image in no way I was ever expecting to see. An image of a young girl that I knew had ended her own life. She was scared and confused and asking for me to help her! What, me? Who, wait What??? Is this part of the deal? So never having experienced this before, feeling quite uncertain and scared, I seek guidance from Pat. “I don’t know if I can do this, is this part of the deal”. No sugar coating, she replied, yup this is part of the deal. So what do I do, how do I help? You pray, she said, you pray. Are you making the connection yet? Faith…fear? Here it was right in front of me. So that’s what I did, I prayed to Archangel Michael and guess what…it worked!! Amazing, right? I later found out who that girl was when my sister found her obituary online and we were able to validate the information she gave me when she came to me. Her funeral was taking place at my church which is about 1/4 mile from my house that same day. Cray, cray right!!! I know!! What played in my mind, how is this real, why would she come to me, and did this gift come with a receipt, cuz I might need to make a return!!!