HEAVENS WAITING ROOMEverytime I do a reading, whether in a group or private, I use it as a platform to teach and share everything I’ve learned from spirit.  Although I love connecting people with their loved ones in heaven, I have to be honest, I’m not so sure that is my “soul/sole” purpose here on earth.  What I do believe is my purpose is to speak my truth about spirit and let people take from it what they will, without imposition of my beliefs, or judgement on theirs.  My motto, is if I gave you something that made you go “hmmm”,  I did my job. After all, it’s the “hmmm’s” that sometimes ignite a fire in us, we never knew was there!  I want to give you something that makes you hungry to dig deeper, discover more about yourself and about life in general.  Something that drives you to just be a genuinely good human being and helps you to see that good in others.  And most of all, something that gives you a faith in knowing that this life is just a snapshot in the album of our soul’s journey!  So buckle up, get ready, we are taking a trip to heaven!

Very rarely will you hear me refer to my mediumship abilities as a “gift”, why?  Because I don’t believe it is a gift only allotted to a certain few “special” people.  A blessing yes, but for a chosen few, no.  In fact that is the exact opposite of what God shows me.  We are all one in the same, one no better than the other.  Imagine if all of our eyes could view each other that way, how the world would be?   I tell people all the time, I don’t think I’m special, I think…I figured it out!  This amazing secret that everyone thinks is a supernatural ability, is really innate in all of us.  It’s an opportunity and an ability that we are all born with.  it is our free will choice to decide if we will develop it or not and use it to help us on our journey, much like our faith.  I liken it to playing the piano.  If we all learned how to play the piano at the same age how would we progress?  All differently, right?  Some of us might have a more natural inclination, but in actuality we can all learn to play the piano, yes?  The amount of time and effort you give to something plays a great role in your development.  Mediumship is no different.   Anyone who has ever seen me, says, “you’re the medium?”  As though I’m supposed to have a mole on my face, be wearing a turbon on my head and carrying a crystal ball?  I’m this everyday girl, this mom, this wife, this nurse, who had an experience one day that made me go hmmmm!!  Fast forward 5 years later and I know I don’t have it all figured out, not even close, but I have something amazing that changed my life, for the better, and can change yours too!

So those of you that have read my blogs might remember I wrote about my first experience with spirit.  It was in my bathroom, aka “the spirit portal” LOL.  I was getting ready for work, and what I perceived as “daydreaming” stopped me in my tracks.  I was seeing images of things that I couldn’t explain.  In the same spot in our minds eye that we “daydream” or visualize memories and process images.  But these images were not memories and I knew that, and they involved my uncle who was in heaven.  And then words were popping in and flowing as though someone was speaking to me.  Enough that I stopped and said, ” I think he’s talking to me?”  Want to know what I heard next in my head,  “She can hear me!!”  Yup it was that simple.  I acknowledged it and my life changed. It was as though a flood gate opened and all these words and images started to come in super fast, SUPER FAST!!  I often wonder if I had never acknowledged that moment and had dismissed it, where would I be today?  And had he been trying before that and I dismissed it in the business of my life.  I’m sure of it!!   So the key to unlocking that door allowing spirit to enter into my life…was acknowledgement, I’m going to say it again, ACKNOWLEDGEMENT.  This is 50% of the process!!  Do you know how many times people share a story of how they thought a loved one that had passed gave them a sign and then followed it with, “but I could just be crazy, I mean maybe it’s just a coincidence, I probably wanted to see it, right?”.  Ok, so here’s my answer to that, wrong!  I rode that crazy train for a good 2 years!! I rode it long enough for us all.  A word of advice, take the bus, it’s a lot less hassle, and there’s a lot more adventurous stops along the way, LOL!!  The truth is, our soul’s already know it’s real.  It is our human mind, or ego, that asks us to prove it!  We need to touch it, feel it, see it, hear it, right?  But isn’t the definition of faith just the antithesis of that?  So why question it? If I told you this was it, we die, and that’s it, how does that make you feel?  Now if I told you that our loved ones that have passed are truly around us everyday giving us signs and encouragement that they are still with us guiding and supporting us, how does that make you feel?  So apparently we are innately masochistic as well?  Well thank you God for the challenge, lol!  What does your heart tell you?  The truth is there is no reason to distrust anything that we think is a sign from spirit.  They will not interfere with your free will choices, they may guide you, and encourage you, but ultimately every choice is yours.   Trust is the next key!

So I’m sure I’ve talked about trust at some length in previous blogs, but it is crucial to connecting with spirit.  Some of the greatest validations come in trusting what we want to withhold for fear of dissappointment.  As a medium, I trust everything they show me!! EVERYTHING.  I hold onto the fact that I don’t know these people, so anything they show me, I have no need to question it, no matter how crazy it seems.  When I do readings, I tell people I trust what spirit says more than I trust what the person sitting in front of me says.  So this is how it works.  I look to that place in my minds eye, I see flashing images of people, things, I feel things, and I hear things.  All of these puzzle pieces, I take, acknowledge, and deliver to you without allowing my brain to interfere with the flow of energy!  So when I see them, I might see a quick flashing image of a man/woman that maybe fuzzy and blurred as though I didn’t have my glasses on.  So I will describe them to you as best I can.  Then I continue to hear muffled voices and sometimes will actually see written words flowing into my head.  They might zoom in my lens on their feet, their shoes, their hand, their eyes.  They use signs and symbols to make what they want to say easier for me to interpret.  All of which I spit out to you.   Last night I did a reading. I heard “go stand in front of that woman”.  So as I’m walking toward this woman I heard “the mother”.  So I say to this woman, your mother is in spirit?  She says yes.  Her mom shows me her daughter has her ring.  The woman says, “no”.  So I ask spirit again, her mom shows me the same thing.  So I say, “well your mom says yes, persistently”.  The woman looks down at her hand, and says “omg, I totally forgot I do, this ring I always wear was my mother’s”!  We all shared a great laugh and it was this awesome moment, where my clients experienced first hand how to trust spirit.  This happens in almost every single reading I do!!  When I’m not interpreting something right, I will tell you if I’m not sure, I have no reason not to, I’m human and this is a process. Sometimes spirit will even shake their head no at me, if i’m not interpreting their message correctly!  I know right, the nerve of them to say I’m wrong, lol.  Here is the thing, it may not be an exact science.  It’s two different forms of energy meeting half way thru dimentions to communicate.  Sometimes that station gets a little static, but if we work together we will get their message down!  Some have more energy to give and it allows them to be clearer with their messages.  I will share that with you so that you understand the process.   All spirits communicate in different ways as well.  I have to take what they can give.  So initially I may not see them, I may just hear them.  When this is the case I always tell my client so they don’t put an expectation on their loved ones they cannot deliver.  Some people will ask me, “well what color are their eyes?, ask them where my keys are?”  Well here’s the thing I like to let spirit run the show and bring up what they feel you need and then you always know it’s coming from a pure place.  They only give me enough to get me to say what they want me to say to you.  So if they show me their eyes, I will tell you.  If they don’t, I won’t.  Putting that expectation on them is like asking them to manifest in full form in front of you.  It takes an enormous amount of energy.  Some mediums will dismiss a “no” and move on.  I refuse to do that.  There is no such thing as a “no”.  Spirit knows all and is never wrong.  So a “no” first means I need to clarify from spirit that I am interpretting their message correctly.  That is my job, to get the right message to the right person.  If they confirm I am correct and the person still says no, that means one of two things…either it will be validated by another family member or near future occurence, or it is coming from another spirit.  Last night everytime I looked at this one girl I saw emerald earrings, persistently.  She couldn’t place it at the time, but afterwards she texted her older sister, who it turns out had their mom’s emerald earrings.  So essentially every piece of the puzzle should fit.  If a puzzle piece still does not fit, then I know it’s coming from another spirit trying to get my attention shifted to them!  I always say, don’t try to make a circle fit inside a square.  In doing that you could be discounting another spirit who’s trying to get thru.  When we both acknowledge a “no” I am asking them, show me more, tell me more.  All it takes is for you to acknowledge one piece of their puzzle and it’s like you called their number at the deli counter!  “Now serving number 22!”  It’s like throwing out a fishing line and pulling their energy right to me so that I can connect with them on a higher level and get more validations from them.   Acknowledgement is 50% of the process remember?!   Next thing you know here comes uncle Jimmy making his way thru the crowd to turn in his ticket, lol!  Often in groups their are so many spirits fighting for my atttention, they know they cannot all be heard.   So when nobody acknowledges them simply because they “aren’t sure”, what happens is all the other spirits are taking advantage of the opportunity to bump them out of the way and get my attention so their loved ones can get messages too.  So essentially they’ll need to take a new number and try again later if they are not acknowledged right away.

I don’t believe I have truly seen heaven or claim to know everything about it, but I do believe they allow me to meet them half way, “the space between”.  And that is where my waiting room exists where I communicate with them and God is always there overseeing the process.  I think when I see heaven I will be going there myself and that is when I will truly have all the answers.  I believe they want to remind us they are not gone just different.  They acknowledge our journey as humans is challenging to say the least.  They want to help us embrace the lows, learn from them, and carry as few burdens as possible.  They want us to feel the highs and let them become part of our hearts.   Heaven is not this place in the sky, it’s all around us.  Most days I feel like I can reach out and grab it.  My goal, is to get you to grab it too.  It’s an amazing feeling to connect with my Dad everyday.  Don’t get me wrong, I miss our long talks, I miss his hugs and the feeling of his cheek next to mine.  But I still have the best part of him..his heart and soul!  That never dies!!  So if what I do can help you to believe in anything, believe in that!  “It’s been a long day without you my friend, but I’ll tell you all about it when I see you again” ~Charlie Puth…Now serving number 23!! xo Jules

What are you craving? Simplicity is on the Menu!


I used to have an art teacher that told me to KISS most of what I encounter in life.. not literally of course…what does it mean? put it simply..Keep it simple stupid! LOL simple right, but it stuck!  What if I told you it really was simple?  What if I told you today was the day that everything becomes all too clear?  The past, the present, and the future.  It is in our human nature to clutter, to analyze, to overthink, to control,…and yet all those things are the exact antithesis of what we are made of!  Liken it to being sit down at one of your favorite restaurants.. you look at the menu…at first you get excited by all the choices, but then a bit of frustration sets in because you simply can’t decide…so you start asking everyone else at the table what they are going to get..of course you want to be satisfied with your choice.  So finally you pick, and think to yourself, well if it doesn’t meet my expectations…I will….You will what?  Will you order something else?  Will you simply be grateful that you have food and let your expectation of it go?  Will you ask someone else to give you some of theirs because it just looks so much tastier than yours and after all they are at your table for a reason, right?  I want you to think about all these options I just gave you.  Think about the person you want to be and what you want to radiate out into the world.   And now think realistically which one of those choices you would actually make?  Are they the same? This is your free will to be exactly who you want to be.  The simple part of this analogy is that we are all hungry!!!  We all come into the world with a menu, perhaps just at different restaurants or starting points.  We are all afforded the same choices although are tastes may be different.  What and how will you choose?

Here’s the thing..spirit reminds me we are all made of the same stuff when we come into this world.  A small tiny piece of glitter..a glimmer of purposeful bright white light called unconditional love.  Each piece of that glitter falling from the same bright star called GOD.  So in essence we all have the same make-up, come from the same source, yet are uniquely special and different, why you ask?”This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine, let it shine, let it shine, let it shine”…Are you singing yet?  The answer…because your light is uniquely purposeful.  There is nobody in this world that can be you!  Don’t get me wrong, people may try, but rest assured it won’t happen.  Believe you are special, and purposeful in the eyes of God!!  But I want you to also see that so is everyone else!  So how is it that we can learn to let our souls “simply sparkle” without letting all that clutter and junk dull that sparkle?  I’m gonna give you some tools to help shift your perspective, simplify the menu so to speak, and make the choices that will be healthy, meet your needs, without leaving you feeling unsatisfied.  How does that sound?

Let’s start with acknowledging that we are one in the same.  Why, it allows us the ability to find compassion and empathy for one another.  The struggle is REAL people. No matter which path we choose to be on…we all face struggles that are real and challenging to us.  The uniqueness in the journey has to do with our starting points, our free will choices, our lessons,  and ultimately our perspective.  I love when Joel Osteen says in his sermons, “Be the victor not the victim”!! In simplicity, God sent us here with a glimmer of him because he wants us to feel compassion, love and empathy for each other without comparison.  Just as he does for us!! That’s it, it’s that simple!!! Say that over and over again, because that is the simplicity we seek in our complicated lives and relationships!!  We need to challenge ourselves to stay focused on our own menus, on our own orders, on our own expectations of that food that is bestowed on us..and have faith that God will take care of the rest because he will!!

Now I want to talk a little about how spirit inspired me to write about this and how they can help you to achieve the simplicity you too may be craving.  We are spring cleaning here!  As you know I always meditate.  My meditations have evolved significantly over the years.  So the other day I meditated and my Dad came into my room where I pray, and seek guidance from my guides and from GOD.  So my Dad comes in and he hands me something as he often does.  Guess what it was…A dandelion!  But not those pretty yellow ones.. it was dandelion gone by, the grey feather like ones that are full of seeds. Thanks Dad, I like diamonds too, (just kidding) LOL Everytime spirit hands me something, I know there is a message in the message for me.  They are trying to guide me, support me, they know..THE STRUGGLE IS REAL.  LOL  So at the end of my meditation I seek out the spiritual meaning of said Dandelion.  What did I find?  The Dandelion is very spiritually significant.  The Dandelion can be fierce in that it has a willingness to survive and can regenerate from its roots.  It has natural healing abilities in that it can be made into tea that serves to detoxify.  The blowing seeds symbolizing prayers being sent to heaven and spreading faithfulness into the world.  A changing in perception from a field full of weeds, to a field full of bright yellow flowers though one in the same.  Simple yet so profound.  Now let me tell you how this fits for me.  I pray everyday.  I started my “Can I Pray for you” campaign on facebook for lent.  I pray for healing, for faithfulness, for survival, for all those that add their names and for myself.  No coincidence!   I’ve been seeing the message of the Dandelion everywhere, although the ground is still covered in snow!  So in seeking simplicity, ask for it, pray on it, and then believe it will come to you in the simplest of ways.  Would you ever think something as simple as a Dandelion could be so significant?  Would you ever consider that spirit would send it to you as a message from heaven? Well that is true of everything with spirit.  They are constantly trying to simplify our menu, all the while guiding us to make choices that will satisfy our hunger.  Don’t discount your messages.. KISS them! LOL “Any intelligent fool can make things bigger and more complex…It takes a touch of genius, and a lot of courage to move in the opposite direction”. ~Albert Einstein

Glisten from the Inside Out


infrared_098Believe it or not, Nellie Furtado wasn’t really the one who coined the phrase “shine bright like a diamond”! I know shocking right!  And my guess is your already singing that song in your head!  Daniel Defoe says, “the soul is placed in the body like a rough diamond, and it must be polished within or the luster of that soul will never appear”  Interesting analogy right!  Spirit reminds me all the time that when we enter this world, we enter full of nothing but unconditional love, pure as the white driven snow!  No pun intended New Englanders, lol! But seriously, its true! Then as we grow and learn we are shaped into the person we were meant to become and endure those challenges that we asked our higher power to give us that aids that growth!  So get your shine on people, cuz today we are digging deep and learnin to glisten from the inside out!

“I myself am made entirely of flaws stitched together by good intentions”.  Yup that’s right, us humans are the perfect imperfection.  A bunch of squirrels all just trying to get a nut! Learning to overcome all those senseless human emotions and get back to the core of our being, in simplicity..LOVE. Sometimes we pile so much clutter on top of it, we need a “got junk” truck to come and unbury it like an episode of hoarders.  LOL. We have this innate way about us where it is so just so much easier to stomp our feet, throw our hands in the air, and say seriously, who, what, where, how and why is this happening to little old amazing me?  That’s just it! The answer within the question.. the who is you! The what is looking for the lesson in it all. The where is inside of you. The how is not your worry, a testament to your faith.  And the why, well the why is because you are amazing and your soul might be in need of a little reminder of that!

So what do we do when we find ourselves climbing these mountains seemingly unprepared with no safety net.  Don’t go for the insurance.. find the net!  LOL.  Its your faith, its your foundation, its the love inside of you.  That’s the safety net!  So when you feel like you can’t possibly climb any higher and hold on any longer..remember there is always a safety net beneath just might be hidden under all that clutter.  That net will give you that little bit of rest and reassurance you need to keep climbing!  Before you know it, you’ll be back on that mountain shouting “I think I can” all the way to the very top! The best part? When you get there you are a little more defined than at the start of your journey.  A little more certain of your path.  A little more confident in yourself.  A little wiser than you were before.  A little more beautiful and polished on the inside.  And as the sun clears thru those clouds on the top of that mountain, it shines on those defined edges that were once rough, revealing a lustrous beauty that was waiting to glisten all along!

So now your saying, great story, but easier said than done right.  Well I agree it’s a lot of work to climb those mountains and we all have them.  So what can we do to help declutter, stay on track, and in essence stay polished.  There are lots of techniques that I use to try to keep it together.  First, gorilla glue. No just kidding, don’t do it. LOL  First, intention.  I always bring myself in any situation back to my intention.  When your intentions are focused on greatest good, you are connected to your higher self.  Second, meditation.  Meditation has so many purposes.  It can balance you, ground you, protect and shield you from unwanted negativity, and it can heal you! Yes I said heal you, from the inside out that is.  Here is an example.  When I do my meditation after a challenging day or if I’m feeling a little off.  When I go into my room with my guides I have told you before the wings they give me are a symbol of the message they are giving me.  Sometimes I see these wings tattered when I enter that room.  Broken, so to speak.  But after I pray and connect with my guides, they are different.  Almost as though I’ve received a new pair!  Stronger, more resilient and with new perspective.  A reminder that the climb was not for nothing!  And once those little old wings are restored for flight again, do you know what they bring me back to…LOVE.  A reminder to love myself, love others, and that love is the ultimately the light that makes our diamonds shine bright! We may have to work at shaping and polishing them, but love is what will make that natural beauty oh so clear! So my message from spirit for you all today, don’t let anyone or anything in this life dull your sparkle, instead let it motivate you to shine your light so bright it is a beacon for others to light the way!  Let the light inside you glisten from the inside out! “I have found the paradox that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love”~Mother Theresa .

The Humpty Dumpty Syndrome



Ever feel like Humpty Dumpty in that you just can’t seem to keep it together?  Well I am here to tell you that you’re not alone.  Breaking news…we are all human! Even though some of us might spend our days racking our brains trying to figure out this crazy life…maybe we just aren’t supposed to have it “all” figured out!!  I mean I’m all for the whole “glowworm” ray of sunshine attitude, but let’s face it we all have our “hot mess” kind of days!  The story of our lives, right!  Fall apart, learn to put pieces back together, relish in the joy of triumph, repeat process!  Sounds like a pattern to me?!  This is what I like to call the Humpty Dumpty Syndrome.  No I am not a hypochondriac nor am I a scientific genious; however this is definitely an epidemic among us humans!

So I want you to take a moment to think of who you were ten years ago.  Now take a moment to acknowledge who you are now.  My bet is you would acknowledge that you’ve learned a great deal of lessons, which, have actually shaped who you’ve become.  I’m also willing to bet some of those lessons brought you to your knees!  Now I want you to think of your goals and aspirations, and who you envision yourself to be ten years from now.  The fact of the matter is although we can, to a certain degree, shape our reality by what we send out to the universe, we cannot predict the lessons that we will face along the way.  When you think of your greatest lessons, your greatest hardships, do you correlate them to other human beings?  Whether you perceive these events as positive or negative, the end result was a lesson, no?  Let’s break it down a litttle further.  So as you know I am the youngest of nine siblings.  Yes I said nine!  Anywho, imagine growing up with one bathroom!  Think there was a lot of glowworms in the morning, ummm no!! LOL Anyway, when I think of some of my greatest lessons, and who taught them to me, most of them are the people closest to me, uhum cue the brothers and sisters!  Good, bad, or downright ugly, they gave em to me!  They tell it like it is.  They are my biggest chearleaders and they are also the ones that knock my butt off that wall when I need it!  And guess what, they are also the ones who help me back on my feet and teach me how to put my pieces back together again.  Gorilla glue and all!  So ya see, we all fall, we all get back up at our own pace, and we all learn how to put our pieces back together!  And when you do,  guess what?…this is the best part…wait for it…you’ve become an even stronger, more beautiful version of yourself.  Ta da…lol  Why? Because you’ve healed yourself from the inside out!!  Who better to make you the most beautiful version of yourself than those closest to you!  They see you at your worst and they see you at your best.  So next time you’re upset with someone close to you for making you feel…well let’s just say, less than perfect…try to see if there’s a lesson in there for ya..I’m guessing so!

Here’s the thing about life…I love to talk about it and share my thoughts on it, my lessons..but the bottom line is we’re all just figuring it out together.  And by the time we are done “figuring it out”  our time here in this world will more than likely be over.  We will have gotten what our souls came here for.  The way I look at it is, if a puzzle came all put together, looking all pretty, wouldn’t that defeat the point in the first place?  Kind of takes all the fun out of it right?  Well that’s how I look at life… it’s just one big puzzle.  Each twist and turn, each time we end up on our knees and learn to get back up, each heartache, each challenge we overcome, we are fitting another piece of our puzzle together.  And when that puzzle is complete, I’m certain it will be absolutely Be~You~Tiful!!!  So next time you are feeling like Humpty Dumpty and need a little gorilla glue, know that you are not alone!!!  In the words of one of my favorite beautiful women..”For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone”. ~Audrey Hepburn

What’s Love Got to Do With It?



In the past week I have learned so much about life, love, and the pursuit of happiness.  As many of you know my Dad has been fighting ALS (Lou Gherig’s Disease) for 3 years.  This week his condition declined considerably.  It made me contemplate so much about life and mortality, even more so than I ever did in my last 15 years as a nurse.   The many questions that ran through my head, why? what’s to gain? what’s to learn?  What am I supposed to feel?  What am I supposed to do?  All of which I realized the answer to lies deep within, within our hearts, within our souls and they all start with LOVE.

I am one of nine children as I have written before.   All with different ways, different personalities, but all made from the same two people, my mom and Dad.  Two people who fell in love and created a family of nine children, and 28 grand and great grand children!  Watching my Dad’s illness progress has been one of the most difficult, challenging, and humbling experiences of our lives.  Faced with the reality of our father’s mortality.. we all came together.  We held hands.  We prayed.  We put any and all differences, obligations and responsibilities aside.  Solely for the purpose of being with our father.  Just being!  We reminisced about childhood memories.  We laughed.  We cried.  We looked through old pictures.  Time stopped.  Our chaotic lives went on hold…and somehow there was time.   Time for all of it.  Time for LOVE!  It was as though nothing else in the world mattered, because ya know what…it didn’t!!

My Dad would sleep, and then he would awaken.  Each time with something amazingly enlightening to say to the one that would sit in front of him.  A story, a simple phrase, a joke.  It didn’t matter.  We soaked it in like a sponge.  It brought forth the reality that as we get older obligations and responsibilities seem to take presidence of our time.  But in turn those obligations and responsibilities become our struggles, our triumphs, our stories.   My Dad has years of wisdom and stories to share and in his words…he’s not done sharing quite yet.   We realize this process, although we want to be present and selfishly insert ourselves into really between him and God.  We are on a need to know basis in regards to our exits from this world we know.  Knowing is apparently overrated.  We would ask each other, ask the hospice nurse, ask anyone..what do you think?  Perhaps an unconscious effort to allow time for emotional preparation.  A preparation that we know deep down would never really happen!  Why?  Because when you have a love so deep for someone goodbye is impossible to prepare for.  You say everything that you think you need to say, but you can never say “I love you”  enough!!  I have learned from this process the why…because physical death is a part of life and in turn causes us to dig deep.  Deep into what we believe in, in that which can sooth our soul.  For me, I find solace in knowing that the soul is everlasting. We don’t die, our existence simply becomes different. 

So what’s to gain in all this?…memories, fulfillment, wisdom, and ultimately the realization of the Powers of LOVE.  I have learned there is no right way to feel, no right thing to do.  Their is no proper way to prepare or to recover from loss.  As a medium, spirit reminds me everyday they just want us to be happy.  Even if it is without them being physically present.  So today, I thought about all the wisdom my Dad has shared with me over the years.  I thought about what I could do to honor him and his spirit while he is still here.  Do you know what he would want.  He would want me to live!! Live intently, lovingly, triumphantly, and timelessly!!!   So my message in all of this for you, is take time, time today, time tomorrow, and time the day after that.  Take time out of what you think you “have” to do, to do something you “need” to someone how much you love them and honor them as a part of your life, your heart and your existence.  In the end, that’s what is going to count.  It’s that love that our souls forever carry! There is a saying from Rick Warren that goes something like this…”The best use of life is love, The best expression of love is time, the best time to love is now!”


It’s not about what you see, it’s about what you believe!




Just recently I sat down and read the book, “Heaven is for Real”.  I was so intrigued by this family’s story I read it in 3 hours cover to cover.  I couldn’t wait to see the movie although I had already created images in my mind of their story.  For those of you that aren’t aware the book is about a little boy that has emergent surgery and, although his heart never stopped beating, he vividly describes an experience of traveling to heaven!  Meeting loved ones not only that he never met, but didn’t even know about.  Describing angels and even Jesus without hesitation!  The father is actually the author and is also a minister at their community church.  You can imagine the resistance he received not only in his own mind, but from his parish members when he finally shared his son’s story.  The inspiring part is that he took that resistance and he transformed it into inspiration, faith, and true belief!  As a medium, people ask me curiously all the time..have you seen heaven…have you met Jesus…what is it like?  I’m going to put myself out on a ledge a bit here, rely on my faith and share with you the most intimate details of what I see as a medium! 

It took me years to finally openly share that I am a medium, never the less share the details of what spirit shows me.  It’s just so much easier to tell people I’m a nurse!  But why?  What is it we as a culture and society are afraid of hearing, afraid of seeing, afraid of believing?  I’ve said it so many times, there is no faith in fear..(thank you Pat Longo for that one!).  I read a saying once, if you are worrying all the time, then you have no faith that god is going to get it right!  Let’s not worry so much about others accepting us, and work on accepting others!  After all acceptance in its simplest form is unconditional love.  And speaking of heaven..that’s exactly where we will begin!

So for those of you that have read my blog from the beginning know my story of how I realized I was a medium and how spirit communicates with me.  Even in my speech before I do every reading I explain to people when I appear that I am looking at the floor or the wall, I’m actually looking “there”.  Where is “there”? That place I take myself to that allows spirit to show me things, tell me things.  Let’s start from the beginning.  I used to meditate before I did every single reading, it was like I had to in order for me to feel connected!  So what would I see when I meditate…I’m gonna walk you thru!  I see a house…a big white house with a white picket fence and a walkway lined with flowers.   As I walk up that walk to the door I look back sometimes I see whomever is waiting for the reading on the other side of the fence, sometimes I see my family, but they don’t come with me.  Here’s the thing, I don’t see things thru my own eyes..I actually see myself like I am watching myself in a movie.  Don’t ask me how, cuz I don’t know, it just happens! So I open the door of the house and there is a big grand wooden staircase.  Now I used to slowly walk up the stairs, now it’s like I’m on an escalator to the top, LOL!! The light that shines on that staircase is so bright you can actually see the dust particles that would float amidst it!  Can you see it?  As I get to the top of the staircase there are 2 doors.  The door to the right is the door to my guides.  I always go there first.  I never know what is going to happen when I open that door.  As my gift has evolved, I have experienced new things there.  So the first time I opened that door there was a man sitting in the chair with a white coat on.  He has dark hair and sea blue eyes,  He is my spirit guide and now my best friend.  He has been the same man since day 1!  He gave me the song, “a thousand years”  and I have meditated to that song ever since!  I also have another guide who never really speaks but he is also in the room.  He is an indian chief.  And others that have entered along my journey the last 3 years as well.  They all have a different purpose as to what they help me with!  So I kneel in front of my guide, we talk about what I need from him and he gives me hints about new things may be coming my way, or insight to what I am currently dealing with in my life. After our talk, I would lay down on a bench that would turn into water and I would be emersed in it.  The amazing thing is I could always breath under the water and I was never afraid!  I always had dreams of the same as a child.  I was swimming under water but could always breath!  This would happen to me everytime I meditated!  It was what I perceive as a baptism of sorts!  Once I have done this I am helped out of the water by my angels, lots of them!  They walk me to the other side of this room where there is this bright white light like you have never seen!!  This is where I pray! This is where I see Jesus and the blessed mother…always!  Now here’s the thing…I don’t believe I am seeing them cuz I am special or because of my medium abilities.  I believe that we can all see them, if we so choose!  You know that song, just call my name and I’ll be there!  Just like that!  They are my strength and foundation, they keep me grounded!  They let me know my lessons, they bring me peace when I need it, they extend a hand to me when I need it.  If your strength is Buddha, then you shall see Buddha! The blessed mother always has children with her.  After a while, one day when I kneeled in front of them to pray, they gave me wings!! I know now your like, ok she lost me!! LOL No really, they gave me wings!!  But these wings are a symbol for me!  When my wings are small and folded downward onto myself, I have learned they are telling me its a time to humble myself!!  When my wings are large and spread open wide, they are telling me to soar!   When my wings are engaged, they are telling me I have an upward climb to prepare for and I need to stay focused!  Pretty amazing right! So once I am done with praying I walk out of this room and across the hall to another door.  This is my waiting room! So my waiting room is full of spirits, your loved ones!!  Young and old.  It has lots!!!  Just waiting for their opportunity to speak.  I used to always be afraid my waiting room would be empty.  What if there is nobody that wants to speak to this person in front of me?  Ummm, nope, there is always someone there, for everyone!!!!   My guides and my angels come with me into this room.  They help me keep clarity and organization.  So once and only once they cleared a path for me to go to the back of this room.  There was a door where I could see them coming in and leaving thru.  My guides brought me thru this door just once.  On the other side was this beautiful huge coliseum  like room.  Grand balconies all different levels all with doors.  A ceiling so beauiful like a mosaic you would see in a church. Are you envisioning it?  All I could see were spirits or people going in and out of the doors.  I’ve only been there once.  I think they were giving me a glimpse! A glimpse of the seven levels of heaven.  That is a story in itself, but there is a book called Many Lives Many Masters that goes into the 7 levels of heaven if you want to learn more.  All my spirits meet on level 2 in order to be able to communicate with me, another thing I learned from Pat Longo!  This ensures I do not leave myself vulnerable to any negative energy.  I do believe darkness is attracted to light and I do believe I have seen it.  I also believe that no lightwork comes without sacrifice and risk.  Mediums, good mediums, do lots of work behind the scenes to be able to provide you with this experience.  We have to keep ourselves grounded, keep our energy vibrations up, and most importantly protect ourselves.  Remember you can’t give others what you don’t have!  A good medium is responsible with their practice, we just do it behind the scenes!  Most of these practices involve visualization for me.  Seeing is believing for all of us visiual folks, but faith is believing even when you can’t see!  Your mind, your body, and your soul are powerful in and of themselves, but when you take the opportunity to synchronize them, you will be amazed at what happens!

So everytime I meditate what I see changes and evolves ever so slightly.  What I see and experience now is so different from what I experienced 3 short years ago.  Why?  Because spiritually I have grown and evolved.  Thats what it’s all about.  Much like that little boy’s story, when I see spirit they too will show me a younger, vibrant version of themselves than they were known in life.  I’m not sure why, I guess I always assumed in heaven you get to be as beautiful on the outside as you are on the inside! I got goosebumps when he told his Dad that same thing!  So in response to all those questions, have I seen heaven?..a glimpse perhaps, but not what I believe my heaven will be!  I have seen that meeting place so to speak, but not what’s behind those doors!  I think I’ve seen the path, but not the palace. As far as Jesus and Mary, well as I said before we can all see them, walk with them, anytime we want.   What is it like?  It’s like that warm blanket I always talk about.  It’s that moment you held your baby for the first time!  It’s that kiss on your wedding day! Its that unconditional love…that’s heaven!  I can’t tell you why I see the things I see, I can’t tell you how, but I can tell you with certainty I wholeheartedly have faith in it!  There is no reason to fear, to ask, to discover, after all there is far more to be gained in seeking knowledge than there is to lose!  Billy Graham said, “Heaven is full of answers to prayers for which no one ever bothered to ask”….I wish you the courage, the strength, and the will to ASK!!!!