Just recently I sat down and read the book, “Heaven is for Real”. I was so intrigued by this family’s story I read it in 3 hours cover to cover. I couldn’t wait to see the movie although I had already created images in my mind of their story. For those of you that aren’t aware the book is about a little boy that has emergent surgery and, although his heart never stopped beating, he vividly describes an experience of traveling to heaven! Meeting loved ones not only that he never met, but didn’t even know about. Describing angels and even Jesus without hesitation! The father is actually the author and is also a minister at their community church. You can imagine the resistance he received not only in his own mind, but from his parish members when he finally shared his son’s story. The inspiring part is that he took that resistance and he transformed it into inspiration, faith, and true belief! As a medium, people ask me curiously all the time..have you seen heaven…have you met Jesus…what is it like? I’m going to put myself out on a ledge a bit here, rely on my faith and share with you the most intimate details of what I see as a medium!
It took me years to finally openly share that I am a medium, never the less share the details of what spirit shows me. It’s just so much easier to tell people I’m a nurse! But why? What is it we as a culture and society are afraid of hearing, afraid of seeing, afraid of believing? I’ve said it so many times, there is no faith in fear..(thank you Pat Longo for that one!). I read a saying once, if you are worrying all the time, then you have no faith that god is going to get it right! Let’s not worry so much about others accepting us, and work on accepting others! After all acceptance in its simplest form is unconditional love. And speaking of heaven..that’s exactly where we will begin!
So for those of you that have read my blog from the beginning know my story of how I realized I was a medium and how spirit communicates with me. Even in my speech before I do every reading I explain to people when I appear that I am looking at the floor or the wall, I’m actually looking “there”. Where is “there”? That place I take myself to that allows spirit to show me things, tell me things. Let’s start from the beginning. I used to meditate before I did every single reading, it was like I had to in order for me to feel connected! So what would I see when I meditate…I’m gonna walk you thru! I see a house…a big white house with a white picket fence and a walkway lined with flowers. As I walk up that walk to the door I look back sometimes I see whomever is waiting for the reading on the other side of the fence, sometimes I see my family, but they don’t come with me. Here’s the thing, I don’t see things thru my own eyes..I actually see myself like I am watching myself in a movie. Don’t ask me how, cuz I don’t know, it just happens! So I open the door of the house and there is a big grand wooden staircase. Now I used to slowly walk up the stairs, now it’s like I’m on an escalator to the top, LOL!! The light that shines on that staircase is so bright you can actually see the dust particles that would float amidst it! Can you see it? As I get to the top of the staircase there are 2 doors. The door to the right is the door to my guides. I always go there first. I never know what is going to happen when I open that door. As my gift has evolved, I have experienced new things there. So the first time I opened that door there was a man sitting in the chair with a white coat on. He has dark hair and sea blue eyes, He is my spirit guide and now my best friend. He has been the same man since day 1! He gave me the song, “a thousand years” and I have meditated to that song ever since! I also have another guide who never really speaks but he is also in the room. He is an indian chief. And others that have entered along my journey the last 3 years as well. They all have a different purpose as to what they help me with! So I kneel in front of my guide, we talk about what I need from him and he gives me hints about new things may be coming my way, or insight to what I am currently dealing with in my life. After our talk, I would lay down on a bench that would turn into water and I would be emersed in it. The amazing thing is I could always breath under the water and I was never afraid! I always had dreams of the same as a child. I was swimming under water but could always breath! This would happen to me everytime I meditated! It was what I perceive as a baptism of sorts! Once I have done this I am helped out of the water by my angels, lots of them! They walk me to the other side of this room where there is this bright white light like you have never seen!! This is where I pray! This is where I see Jesus and the blessed mother…always! Now here’s the thing…I don’t believe I am seeing them cuz I am special or because of my medium abilities. I believe that we can all see them, if we so choose! You know that song, just call my name and I’ll be there! Just like that! They are my strength and foundation, they keep me grounded! They let me know my lessons, they bring me peace when I need it, they extend a hand to me when I need it. If your strength is Buddha, then you shall see Buddha! The blessed mother always has children with her. After a while, one day when I kneeled in front of them to pray, they gave me wings!! I know now your like, ok she lost me!! LOL No really, they gave me wings!! But these wings are a symbol for me! When my wings are small and folded downward onto myself, I have learned they are telling me its a time to humble myself!! When my wings are large and spread open wide, they are telling me to soar! When my wings are engaged, they are telling me I have an upward climb to prepare for and I need to stay focused! Pretty amazing right! So once I am done with praying I walk out of this room and across the hall to another door. This is my waiting room! So my waiting room is full of spirits, your loved ones!! Young and old. It has lots!!! Just waiting for their opportunity to speak. I used to always be afraid my waiting room would be empty. What if there is nobody that wants to speak to this person in front of me? Ummm, nope, there is always someone there, for everyone!!!! My guides and my angels come with me into this room. They help me keep clarity and organization. So once and only once they cleared a path for me to go to the back of this room. There was a door where I could see them coming in and leaving thru. My guides brought me thru this door just once. On the other side was this beautiful huge coliseum like room. Grand balconies all different levels all with doors. A ceiling so beauiful like a mosaic you would see in a church. Are you envisioning it? All I could see were spirits or people going in and out of the doors. I’ve only been there once. I think they were giving me a glimpse! A glimpse of the seven levels of heaven. That is a story in itself, but there is a book called Many Lives Many Masters that goes into the 7 levels of heaven if you want to learn more. All my spirits meet on level 2 in order to be able to communicate with me, another thing I learned from Pat Longo! This ensures I do not leave myself vulnerable to any negative energy. I do believe darkness is attracted to light and I do believe I have seen it. I also believe that no lightwork comes without sacrifice and risk. Mediums, good mediums, do lots of work behind the scenes to be able to provide you with this experience. We have to keep ourselves grounded, keep our energy vibrations up, and most importantly protect ourselves. Remember you can’t give others what you don’t have! A good medium is responsible with their practice, we just do it behind the scenes! Most of these practices involve visualization for me. Seeing is believing for all of us visiual folks, but faith is believing even when you can’t see! Your mind, your body, and your soul are powerful in and of themselves, but when you take the opportunity to synchronize them, you will be amazed at what happens!
So everytime I meditate what I see changes and evolves ever so slightly. What I see and experience now is so different from what I experienced 3 short years ago. Why? Because spiritually I have grown and evolved. Thats what it’s all about. Much like that little boy’s story, when I see spirit they too will show me a younger, vibrant version of themselves than they were known in life. I’m not sure why, I guess I always assumed in heaven you get to be as beautiful on the outside as you are on the inside! I got goosebumps when he told his Dad that same thing! So in response to all those questions, have I seen heaven?..a glimpse perhaps, but not what I believe my heaven will be! I have seen that meeting place so to speak, but not what’s behind those doors! I think I’ve seen the path, but not the palace. As far as Jesus and Mary, well as I said before we can all see them, walk with them, anytime we want. What is it like? It’s like that warm blanket I always talk about. It’s that moment you held your baby for the first time! It’s that kiss on your wedding day! Its that unconditional love…that’s heaven! I can’t tell you why I see the things I see, I can’t tell you how, but I can tell you with certainty I wholeheartedly have faith in it! There is no reason to fear, to ask, to discover, after all there is far more to be gained in seeking knowledge than there is to lose! Billy Graham said, “Heaven is full of answers to prayers for which no one ever bothered to ask”….I wish you the courage, the strength, and the will to ASK!!!!